I had no feelings for my friend at work

I had no feelings for my friend at work until I slept with him. He has a girlfriend and I'm trying to feel guilty but all I feel is crazy for him. I can't stand not knowing if he feels guilty, if he regrets it, if he is secretly turned on by me and if he still wants me...or if f****** me made him think I'm a s*** who he's no longer attracted to. That would confirmation that men just want to f*** me. And just once. Nobody I think is good enough for me ends up loving me, I get love only from weirdos and losers. I wonder why I've had o****** since age 6 and whether or not that prevents me from ever functioning as a normal sexual being. I wonder if my body has been deformed from years of masturbation, and I wonder if this physical issue is the reason men end up leaving me.

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  • maybe you should stop sleeping with other people's man.

  • Thanks, it's nice to hear I'm not the only one. Maybe someday I'll figure this all out.

  • I've been there...i'm a little older now. in retrospect i had all of those thoughts because i was engaging in behavior that wasn't true to my self-identity and didn't match up with my ideas of what my self worth was and what is acceptable treatment from other people, specifically male attention. i'm almost sure the weirdos and losers are the least of your worries, because at least they are obvious about how wrong they are for you!! the creeps are the ones that sneak up on you after the fact. look out! i've been masturbating since i was about 5..i've had similar fears about my v***** but i enjoy it and so does who it is shared with...don't worry, it's not your v*****! you'll find the right experiences in time, hopefully.

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