I am a dog
I am tired of being a player. I have kidded myself into believing I am an up-front, honest guy as I bounce from woman to woman but the truth is, I am deceptive and dishonest.
I know most women get involved with me hoping for something long-term. I let them believe that while all the time planning my escape route.
I have been with probably 40 or more women in the past two years, mostly older women. I can't remember the last time I had a relationship with a women where I wasn't also sleeping with one, two or more other women on the side.
This has been an interesting life but one with a lot of regrets now. I need to find a way out but I think I have an addiction or some other sort of personality disorder. Opening myself up to a mental health professional scares me greatly.
I don't have anything special about me, other than I carry myself with a great deal of confidence and talk a very good game with the ladies. Also, a big c***.
I am serious. I do not feel good about myself at all right now.