I'm in love with my best friend

That I'm in love with my best friend who is unfortunately chronically ill. As a result my parents, who are unabashedly overbearing and controlling, hardly allow me to be friends with him. I am very loyal to my parents and as such discontinued pursuing a romantic interest with my best friend and sought to find another. My best friend is also in love with me, however, and I'm currently dating a new gentleman who is positively wonderful. However, he is not without his own string of complications. He lives in another state, about 3000 miles away, has a child and a good deal of student debt. Through a lot of reassurance and support he's managed to come out a very deep hole he'd been in. He feels grateful for my presence in his life and the fact that I'm ever tending to his feelings and hearing him out. I fear that if for whatever reason our very delicate relationship falls apart, that he might digress. I am still living at home and am almost done with my professional degree. I would really like to move out within a year. I'm not sure I'm in the right. I'm trying to make everyone happy, but I feel as though in doing so I'm ignoring my own happiness entirely. I am trying to make things work with my boyfriend because I love him. I am trying to take care of my best friend because I love him. And I'm trying to make my insatiable parents happy, because I love them. I don't ask anything in return, but I can't help but worry that this will all go up in smoke and I will wind up being the bad guy in everyone's eyes even though all I want is to please and help and take care of them. I'm doing my best. Help?

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