Ever since I got into a relationship with this guy, I have been depressed a lot. The relationship reminded me of how my parents' relationship, and I'm always scared of it happening to me. I become insecure and doubtful. He never understand where I'm getting these worries. I have been cutting. I have had suicidal thoughts. I have thoughts about getting rape/being kidnapped. Right now I want to smoke weed, and drink, so I can leave all the pain behind.