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Secretly wish my best friend would love me...
I once told my friend I wanted to share something with him,when he said "what?" I chocked and said "I'm bi"....I'm gay. We had a few awkward days of silence he said he'll try and change to accept me.
I was happy but had to say "I'm not attracted to you so relax" once again,I lied. Some nights when we had something to drink we'd share a bed and he'll hold me saying things like "I miss holding someone as I go to sleep". It hurts to be so close to him and say nothing, but it would hurt even more to tell him how I feel and lose him forever.
In short I'm the guy that hurts when he tells me about his "perfect love" and the one he holds but I'm glad to have him in my life and to see him smile by the little things
You were right not to tell him how you feel. Suppose you had a girl you were good friends with (who knew you were gay) who confessed her feelings for you? Correct me if I'm wrong but that would put you in an awkward position, would it not? Nothing can come of telling him so don't put him in that position. Find a man who can return your feelings and stop wishing for something you can't have.