I know I am a normal size pretty physical kind of guy on the outside but at times I am scared and weak on the inside. I have never told anyone this. I have protected my wife several time and never had any problems. I actually like to fight once it starts but avoid it as best I can. But I know I can be manipulated. I have fantasies where my wife and I are bullied by several men who know what they are doing and they wear her down till she submits to them and they use and humiliate her in front of me. The worst part is that she responds to them as they call her names. It has stopped me from taking her out and I am unable to explain it to her.