I'm 15 with a crush on a 36 year old man
Just a short while back I was invited to my boyfriend'a uncle's birthday party. I know I'm only 15 and there would be only adults there so I didn't expect much and thought it might've been a bit of a bore. I went nevertheless for my boyfriends sake.
The man hosting the party was my boyfriend's 36 year old cousin. He was absolutely charming and polite and treated me like a lady. He was a delight to be around.
I have always liked older men as I find people closer to my age are extremely immature and I find it difficult to bond with someone like that. I am not a typical 15 year old as I do not go out late partying, sneaking out the house or sleeping around with guys, nor do I smoke or take any drugs. I would like to think I'm a good girl.
Anyway, during this party I did not know this man was 36, I honestly thought he was in his 20's. He knew I was 15 so that didn't matter. He spoke to me a lot and the moment I saw him I was instantly attracted.
We both spoke all night long. He even asked to dance, it wasn't the dirty type of dancing that's awfully crude and inappropriate. It was just messing about and he was encouraging me to let go and have fun. I was also drinking at the party; something I never do. So I got a bit drunk and honestly he thought I was hilarious.
We spoke deeply about things and he made me laugh. Throughout the night I wasn't entirely sure if he was flirting with me or not. He kept winking at me and he was constantly completing me.
At one point him and a family friend were discussing how much they thought I was beautiful. And his comment was "if only I was 10 year younger" then followed by "you're absolutely stunning".
Nearing the end of the night, he was being more flirtatious and he was constantly staring at me. At one point I didn't want to go to the toilet because there was a couple upstairs arguing in his bedroom so I felt awkward, he held my hand and took me to the toilet and waited outside for me. He held my hand tight and squeezed it.
Then when we were waiting for our taxi home at 4am a few of us were in the living room and he kept staring at me, he winked at me Everytime I looked at him and I noticed even when I looked away he just looked at me, and looked at my face only.
Then when the taxi arrived, we all said out goodbyes. I said goodbye first and he gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Then right before I got in the taxi I was waiting for my boyfriends mother and then he hugged me again and kissed me on my cheek, but he almost kissed my lips. Then he gave me a really tight squeeze hug and didn't let go. Then winked at me again.
Honestly I am not naive enough to think it would ever turn into anything serious because I know it won't. Nor will I cheat on my boyfriend. But I really like this man, and I know he likes me too. I would also like to add, that he isn't a pedophile at all, and I cannot stress that enough. I am 16 in a few months which makes sexual relations legal ( I live in te Uk) and I feel maybe I could release my urges just one time.