Im a 21 year old female virgin by choice not because I can't get a guy but because I havnt come across someone that Ive been extremely attracted to in order to do it. Ive dated guys but eh theyve been pointless and a waste of time. Recently however my friend rob confessed his love for me. The next week he started putting his hand on my leg, rubbing my back/waist and touching my thigh. He always says I need to be physically close to you but I always push him away because well im not giving it up to just any d*** and I don't want to feel like a s*** if he dumps me but hes extremely attractive and a very logical person. His intelligence attracts me so now I cant help but want him to just take advantage of my purity. I know guys dont like when girls are just turtles in the bedroom but I just want him all over me now touching me whenever and wherever. I want to be handled roughly by a man not like a insecure child. I feel so dirty thinking these thoughts but everytime I see him I just want him inside of me.