my confession is that I wish I hadn't
my confession is that I wish I hadn't been duped into believing I had to have someone in my life to be complete. I was always complete. I knew it deep down inside and I was always fighting to show that I was. There was no way to have enough experience in my youth to know that it was the people around me that were not complete. They were afraid to be without someone in their life and therefore it was only natural that I have someone too- after all, a woman is 'not enough' to be on her own. That's not true but its what most people think anyway.
Well, I am enough. And I wish I hadn't married at all. I wish I hadn't had kids and I wish I had listened to my heart instead of fearing displeasing and losing the love of those around me- because they didn't love me anyway. They used me to make themselves feel better.
I would have disappeared off the earth to these people. I would have had the right life and I would have been happier. Follow YOUR heart. Not what society tells you, not what your parents tell you, not what your religion tells you. Your gut- your heart never, never, never lies to you. But people? They certainly WILL- just to make themselves feel safe and whether or not it's what you really need for your life.