Bitched out by my cousin. 11/20/14
I'm a 24yr old black male in Florida. I consider myself very handsome and well rounded but I lack in certain areas compared to my cousin. He's a 35yr old dentist and has a 10inch d*** (I'm only 7.5) I enjoy watching him pound my girls p**** and have recently started eating his c** from her p****. I can't even explain how it started. But I do know that things are getting much more kinky. I'm torn between if it's his d*** that I'm attracted to or the cuckold experience of my wife taking a another mans d***. He has started to have me suck him off when no one is around. He calls or texts saying (SMDB) code for "Suck my d*** bruh" and I do it, but I always feel a since of guilt and disgust when I c**. My family would be crushed and when I think of incest it disgust me! But I enjoy watching him s**** my girl and feed me his c**. I don't consider myself gay or a pervert it just excites me. I've secretly swallowed nearly 40 of his c** loads & no one in the world knows this and if my home boys knew about this they would think were freaks. I want to move to start a new life but the thought quickly fades when I'm swallowing this dudes seed in my car, my aunts patio, his garage or when my girl is at work. I need help. I always feel dirty afterwards man. I'm ashamed but it feels so good.