I have weird sexual turn ons that make

I have weird sexual turn ons that make me feel guilty and perpetuate low self esteem. I like this girl but I thought she was getting back with her ex bf, so I have fantasized about both of us servicing him sexually. I have fantasized about my friends having s** with her while i sit on the sidelines and I watch because she doesn't like me. The thing is, we send each other romantic emails and we really do like each other. I just have low self esteem. Sometimes I don't think I am masculine enough, I don't think I am a man. I think other guys are better than me, that's why they are having s** with this girl while I watch (being cuckolded). This doesn't make sense because I am 6'2", muscular at 205 pounds, and good looking. I don't know why I have these deep seated insecurities. I've been hurt in past relationships where I was too much of a "nice guy" and my ex-gfs dumped me for some jerks who cheat on them. I feel like I am not manly and mean enough compared to these guys, that's why I always think that the girls I like would rather be with one of my friends, and I fantasize about being cuckolded.

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  • It's not that you're not mean enough, you just need to show some confidence. You're a self proclaimed nice guy, so I'm going to surmise that you always proposition "her" opinion on things. Well as intuitively appropriate as this may seem to you, a lot of girls just want the man in their life to tell them what they're doing. This holds for dates, food at restaurants, positions and actions in bed. If this sounds disheartening, don't worry, there are in fact girls who know what they want, and appreciate guys who will meet them half way. Even rarer still are women who want to be in control, and maybe that's what you want. I'm just trying to offer a bit of insight based on my experiences.

  • i am sure you are a great guy. You need someone that will treat you right and show you how special you are.

  • we should hook up

  • In a weird sense i understand. I am a beautiful young woman, constently being bruised and used and not even bothered with. I now have all these fantasies about women and men treating me like garbage,using me,calling me names, hurting me.
    its weird.

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