I broke up with my ex about a little
I broke up with my ex about a little over a year ago. Just because I needed a break for a little bit, to enjoy singleness for a little bit. Didn't mean I didn't love him. I've just never really been single since 8th grade ish. He said he wouldn't get a girlfriend and would just wait for me. It didn't take him that long to get a girlfriend- and then he started acting like a j*** to me. Half a year after the break up or so, I was like, hey, maybe we can get back together sometime. And he was like, yeah, i love you, the only person i want to be with is you. I'll call you. Nevre called. I'd call him, he'd never call back. He just says all these things and never goes through with them. He just likes the attention, likes having control. I don't need to give him that control anymore. I've been trying to get over him. It's hard though, because I honestly thought he and I were meant to be. But I haven't talked to him in months, mainly because I have too much s*** to do other than worry about him. But when I think about him, and her, and everything, I just get so sick. And so I avoid it. At times, I try to come to grips with it, but it's a slow process. Last night, he sent me a message when he heard about my pet dying. He said he was sorry about what happened, and it was a nice gesture. I read it. I deleted it. I feel kinda guilty about it. I mean he was just trying to be nice, but..
if I talk to him, or give him an opening to get into my life, he might take advantage of that.. He takes advantage of everything. I don't want him in my life anymore. He will be the death of me. I'm trying to move on. I know he was trying to be nice, and I read it and thought it was nice of him, but I don't NEED to reply. I know what's best for me, and it's not a liar and a user. F*** you.