I have an eating disorder. The first
I have an eating disorder. The first person in whom I was able to confide about it was a friendly acquaintance (also recovering from purging-type anorexia) who also happened to be the former girlfriend of three years of the guy I was dating at the time -- we dated exclusively for just over a year. She never knew that I was dating her boyfriend; we didn't date "secretly" but we were discrete.
Now, I'm slightly heartbroken from my split with the guy and I desperately want to relapse into my purging-type anorexia, and she is the only one I know who could understand exactly, but I cant even bring myself to answer her e-mails. When I talk to her, I can only think about how much I miss him and how guilty I feel for not telling her about it or clearing it with her first -- I met him as her boyfriend, so dating him without her blessing and continuing to keep it a secret was pretty crappy of me to do.