No family, no reason to live

I lost my parents and siblings in a car accident several months ago. I cannot take the grief anymore, so I am going to kill myself to be with them. I have no other family except for some really distant cousins who I've never even met.

Sure, I have lots of friends, but you know what? S**** them. They don't mean s*** to me. They aren't family.

Family is the most important thing in the world. Friends come and go. You only get one family. When you don't have family, you have nothing. I am nothing without my family.

Do not pull the “they would want you to keep living” card (you people have any idea how many people have said that to me?). I don’t care what they might want. I know what I want and that is to not live this way anymore.

I am sorry that I will be hurting my friends, but that's the way it has to be.

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  • You're hurt. I understand that. You're not alone. Ending your own life will not accomplish anything besides cheating you out of the future you deserve. Find a support group. Others have lost loved ones too. I lost my parents and older brother when I was very young. One parent committed suicide, the other overdosed. I didn't want to live. I didn't want to go on. I was left alone in the world. If my own parents didn't care enough about life why should I, right? Wrong! All I can say is thank heavens I didn't go through with it because I've had so many happy moments since then. It's not true that if you have no family you have nothing. You have yourself. You have your future. One day you will have a family of your own. Don't cheat them out of the future they deserve. Please find some type of support group. You don't have to suffer alone.

  • I have a suggestion. Don't kill yourself. Survive this and get your own family and children. You'll always grieve but time will soften the blow.

  • I am hurting for you reading this and will pray for divine intervention for you!

  • I am so sorry for your loss. Losing anyone is hard. I do understand first hand what you're going through. I lost my parents 3 years ago to a car accident, and I was supposed to be in the car that day. I get it. The grief is unbearable and there are no good answers to explain "Why". I didn't think I could go on, but I have and you will too. I experienced a lot of guilt because I felt had I been in the car I could have changed their fate..or something. I thought about killing myself many times, which can be a natural thought when something tragic like this happens. I drank a little, but that didn't really help. What I learned is that grief is a personal process and there are many stages and everyone grieves differently. You will have good days and bad days and somehow you get through it. You live your life and find a new sense of normal. At a friend's suggestion, I did go to therapy and that did help. And maybe that would be something for you to consider. I just got to the point where I was willing to try anything. I journaled too. It takes time. It's always there, I won't lie and say it disappears. It just shifts or maybe it's about acceptance. You have to allow yourself to cry and laugh. I also learned that I couldn't do everything on my own and asked for help when I needed it. I have never been a huge churchgoer, and maybe that could be your thing. I think about my parents every single day. I think about saying good bye to them that day. I think about the milestones that they won't witness in my life and theirs. I feel them around me all the time. I find comfort in that. My mom loved hummingbirds, so anytime I see one I think she's saying hi! My friends were and continue to be amazing (and you probably have some pretty amazing friends, as well). I learned to lean on them and learned to ask for help. And yes, sure people will come and go, that is just life. You're meant to be here. You don't want to hear it, but you are here for a reason.

  • No. It doesn't "have to" be that way. You are making a conscious choice. I suppose you have that right, meaning to end your life, but you can't rationally hang that decision on the loss of your family. That's very close to blaming them for your decision. And lest you forget, you can form a new family: spouse, children, etc. Not one family. Two. For starters. Your choice may seem clear to you. But it's not. Seek and find help. What you're planning is a mistake.

  • WTF are you talking about? They aren't 'blaming' them?!?! Stop judging what they are going through. I lost my mother to suicide, and my best friend and only sibling to cancer. Losing people sucks, especially if you don't have anyone to fill that gap. I have beautiful kids and they keep me going, if it wasn't for them I might be feeling the same way. You also act like it a rational thought process.. it isn't.. the pain and desperation is overwhelming.

    to the OP... it is tough and it's probably going to get worse before it gets better. But I disagree.. family isn't just about genetics... it can be more than that. IT sounds like you are young... as much as I loved my sibling and parents, it does not match the love I felt when my kids were born. As tough as it is, ride the storm... one day you will look back at this and be thankful you didn't make a rash decision.

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