Suicide/self harm trigger warning
I cheated. I got caught. I already felt guilty, but now I feel sick. I considered ODing on one of my scripts, because even if it's not enough to kill me, I have enough of it to at least make me pass out. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight otherwise. My boyfriend didn't do anything to deserve what I did, and I'm still not sure what made me do it. I just feel completely helpless and useless.