My wife left me and I cant get over it. while I was with her I thought about being with other women but tried to fight it off and be a good husband. when I saw it was falling apart I got desperate because we stopped having s** and did sexual things with men because for some reason there are always men willing to do that, I still do it, im disgusted with myself because of it, since we split up iv had s** with a woman I don't find very attractive but still talk to because I don't know when ill find another person who will like me. im stringing her along and hate that I do it. I keep s******* over my friends when I have no intention to, I say something or do something that I don't think is wrong till after I do it. I keep making mistakes and it makes me question everything I do. im writing this now because I im sinking into a dark place and I don't want to go any lower. i want to be a good person, i want to be happy, but when ever i try to make things right and stop doing these things something happens and it gets worse, and i sink back down.