I kind of cheated on my boyfriend at a house party last weekend. It went on late so a bunch of us stayed over night. My friend gave us blankets and pillows to sleep in. There was only one bed in the room I stayed in so my friend Sarah slept in that and I camped out of the floor with my friends Tom and Jason. We turned the lights out and it was pitch black. I was starting to fall alsleep but the boys kept fidgeting and at some point Jason placed his hand over my waist. Before I knew it he had his hand up my top. I lay frozen. I knew it was wrong but I was really h****. Tom also put his hand on me and started to touch me up. I had two hands all over my body. They cupped my t*** and rubbed my p****. In the moment I didn't think about my boyfriend, I could only focus on how wet it was making me. Jason penetrated me with his fingers. It felt so good but I knew I had to stop. I got up to go to the bathroom and when I came back I got in bed with my friend Sarah so they couldn't do it again. But now I'm conflicted. I feel such guilt because my boyfriend is to sweet. But I also can't stop fantasizing about having two boys have their way with me. I keep thinking about what would have happened if Sarah weren't in the room. Would i have let them both f*** me? That makes me feel more guilty but I was m********* and think about it.