My husband cheated on me with hookers
Four years ago I found out that my husband had been having s** with hookers. He says it was about 15 times, in places all over the world while he was on business trips. He also spent thousands of dollars in strip clubs, and spent hours looking at p*** online and in magazines. I was so stupid and blind and never suspected a thing. We have four beautiful children and have been married for 18 years now. He says he has confessed everything and has been working hard to not return to his old habits, and as far as I can tell he hasn't. I know he loves me and our family and I love him dearly. He is my best friend and the only man I have ever loved. I can't tell anyone about this - my family would be devastated and our friends would never look at us the same way again. He is the only one I can talk to about how I feel. I try to carry on for the sake of our kids but I am destroyed. I have been sad and in pain for four years. I can't even remember what it feels like to be happy. I wish I could press a fast-forward button on my life and be done with it. It just feels like everything is over.