I am obcessed with sexing most men I meet

I am 38 yo beautiful white woman, educated and crave new d***. I have been married twice, have two wonderful children and have f***** over a man I have known for 9 years. He has paid my bills, repairs to my home, gave me spending money and paid my house off, as well as helped me through school. He knows I s** other men. Last summer (2014) I called and said I needed help and he responded as always. after not seeing or talking to him in six months. I recently did the same thing and dropped him again as soon as I got a menial job and thought I could make it without him.
My problem: I still need his help but am afraid he has given up on me. I think he is f****** a friend of hours or maybe I'm wrong. Anyway I have made money....in bed... to make my bills, I drink to put up with all this and he has been my alcohol supplier but he has not called or texted. I've always been able to control him by giving him hints but never any complete story. maintaining power over him. Recently he refused an offer of s** from a young lady and said he'd wait for me. He's always kept parts of his life , not private, but unanswered and at times I distrust him. Maybe as an excuse not to love him though he loves me. As in the past, since he left I have been f****** two different men. Trust between us is gone and I want to f*** his brains out some more. As intelligent as he is it may take a lot of f****** but I want to.
What do I do, please?

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  • 19 “There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. 20 At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores 21 and longing to eat what fell from the rich man’s table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.

    22 “The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham’s side. The rich man also died and was buried. 23 In Hades, where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. 24 So he called to him, ‘Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’

    25 “But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. 26 And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been set in place, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’

    27 “He answered, ‘Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my family, 28 for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’

    29 “Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’

    30 “‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’

    31 “He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’”

  • I read your narration with deep sense of empathy. A lot of folks have had enough confusion from a "confused world" to last for a life time! Lack of "personal identity" can bore oneself sick even to having suicide thoughts . Have I once considered suicide in my life? Yes and indeed, many folks you see that walk the streets are full of challenges and pains that were inflicted or innate. In my own case, in my teens , I thought I will not be able to achieve anything because I was abused as a child , lived in a home that always felt like an explosive device was about to ignite. I struggled with these feelings and tried to fill the void via alcohol and "street smokes". I found fake boldness that was transient. I envied and wanted to be like others. I began to steal. Well, I am an adult now, well educated, employed, married, had kids, drug/alcohol/smoke free, and really free from all my demons. How? Yes, I know that this will be the question in your heart. It sounded foolish and dreamlike but it was real. Someone gave me a copy of "New Testament and Psalms and proverbs"; a little blue covered book which could fit into my pocket. It was published by Gideon international. I began to read it from "The Gospel of John" like he advised me. I love reading and it made sense. Well, I may not be able to tell you all that happened to me but I discovered that as I read it daily, I began to be attracted to and talk to the main character in the story; Jesus and it seemed like and old self of mine was dropping off daily. At some point , I was shocked when I was out with my friends and realized that I hadn't touched alcohol in the past 2 weeks! And the stranger thing was that alcohol lost its appeal to me. In fact, it disgusted me. My friends told me that they will "give me just three months" and I will drink myself to stupor like before. well it has been years and I keep getting better; more pleasant than the person I ever tried to be. Jesus is beautiful.

  • We will be the judge of whether or not you are beautiful lady! For all we know you could be an old slapper with a face like a Bull Dog chewing a wasp.

  • Lady, you need to meet my lover: http://www.confessionpost.com/49938/i-met-someone

  • S lut you are 38 :&

  • Tell him to call me! You're a user

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