Account Login
Am I going to **??!
Okay, so it was halloween. My brother and i invited our boyfriend and girlfriend over to drink with us. Im adopted and gay and I'm 16. My older brother Christian is 17and straight. Any ways, we had our girlfriend and boyfriends over. We messed around and watched scary movies. Nightmare on Elm street to be exact, the newer one. But jumping to the point, we got to making out. In the living room, my BF and I were on the couch, my brother and his GF were on the floor. I had a strong buzz going so i was out of it. His GF said something to Christian that made him laugh and stare at me. He called my BF over to him, i sat there like a moron. My boyfriend looked back at me and smiled, so i asked what was so funny. My BF sat down next to me and asked me something really weird. He said, "Would you ** your brother for me?". Um, no, absolutely not. I knew it was wrong, but then my brother came to me and said "I know its weird bro, but Alyssa promised to ** me whenever i wanted". That ** is not convincing me. But what didn't help was the fact that i was starting to get drunk, giggly like. Long story short, he ** me. BUT! don't you dare judge me, i was drunk and he was too. We were dumb, my BF took a pic of it. I know i know, it was bad its very bad. I just want to know, am i going to ** for this. I believe in God and what not, and i really don't wanna go to ** forever. The reason why i ask you random people, is cause i don't wanna bring this up with my parents. But on the other hand, I'm adopted if that helps. I know ** is not acceptable, but in this case, is it? I just need some clarity on this **. Cause i really need to know if i need to pray for what i did and beg for forgiveness. Today is Nov, 2, 2015.
If u R "gay" (gay is a word ppl made up 2 catergorise wot dey felt needed 2 B categorised dats all) Ben "gay" is NOT a sin & if u base Ben "gay" as a sin Bcause of religion just rememBr something so many ppl R 2 brainwashed 2 realise but religion is completely MAN made. Ppl confuse religion & spirituality. There R hundreds of religions & each religion is simply based on some1 elses experiences through their personal spirituality & ppl for some reason follow this making it a religion... why follow some1 elses experience & Bliefs? Forget wot u have Ben tawt, pretend u wer born & u wer never introduced 2 any religion. Find urself, Blieve wot ur heart Blieves, & seek ur own Spirituality Bcause Spirituality is a personal venture, a personal relationship wit u & who u Blieve is ur creator & ALL UR ANSWRS will B answerd so u dont have 2 ask odas if wot u did / doing / going 2 do is a SIN - Bcause u will just receive every1 elses VIEW & BLIEFS which dey probably didnt find due 2 their personal SPIRITUALITY but more due 2 Ben tawt dat through their religion. Not saying Ben part of religion is wrong, no way, i could B wrong, but my opinion & advise for u is dat of my own wen i say..... why follow wot oda ppl Blieve, follow rules which oda ppl make, instead of having a relationship wit ur creator.B urself - never change 2 conform 2 anything but wot u R & how u wer born. Live u life simply Doing no harm 2 odas & no harm 2 urself, Luv & respect ppl, never judge, never shun any1 Bcause of a lack of underst&ing, dont follow ppl ever, walk in ur own shoes & walk holding ur head up high & asking ur creator 2 guide u & show u the right way for U. Lastly, walk wit ur creator & u will find ur way - ur creator, who ever u feel it may B, seriously did not create u wit the thought of sitting above & giggling & expecting u 2 live a life & Ben some1 different 2 how u wer made & the life u wer meant 2 live. Trust in urself - u have the answrs inside, an emotion dat never lies....
Man shall not lay with man for this is a sin. having ** with your adopted brother isn't a sin. having ** with another person as the same gender is a sin.
Kill yourself
Nobody goes to ** for a sin they committed. You only get there by rejecting Jesus as your savior. Read the Book of John in the New Testament. Now, there can be EARTHLY consequences for sin, that's a different story. The fact that you feel guilty for what you did is actually a very good sign. Read John, speak to clergy and make it right between you and God.
Thank you all so much. For the whole clarification. Ill try and catch up on the reading of Gods scriptures. Its Nov 4 now. My bro and i haven't mentioned what happened. I think he feels guilty too. Ill tell him to read up too and try to talk with him about it. LOL, i got a uncomfortable conversation with him tonight. And guy that asked me if he was better than my BF. I'm sorry but i don't think that is a good thing to talk about or even think about. But again to all of you. Thanks for the help on this situation. So much.
You said you are adopted so it is not ** at all, it's all in ur head feeling like family to each other but it's not **... even if u were related by blood.. it's not wrong if u enjoyed it, only wrong if u didn't want it... but if the drunk u let it happen then that's a whole other story...
Shi t happens man. Tbh your bro already had thoughts of fu cking you. Why not enjoy it. Was he a better fuc k than your bf? Also shame on your bf for taking a picture. If anythjng all of them should have joined in and have fun.