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I want to kill myself
Today was a bad day. I stopped trying to make myself throw up all the time about a month ago, but today.I totally lost control. I just couldn't stop bingeing and purging. Now every time.I see a tall building all I can think of and picture is myself jumping off of it. I just looked through my medicine and cleaner cabinet to figure out exactly what would kill me. I'm 14. I don't think I can take this much longer. Nothing is the way it used to be. I keep trying to distract myself but nothing works. I'm not who I used to be. My personality is fake and everythingi say is a lie. No matter how muchi try I can't stop the depression from taking over me. Thisis the firsttime I've ever written it all outa and now I can see how truly ** up I am. I don't deserve to live.
Im interested in knowing what kind of diet your eating, something is causing a chemical imbalance with you, and you need meds to even you out, please ask for help dont be embarrassed
What chemical imbalance? OP was 14. That's all the "chemical imbalance" you need. Quit trying to complicate the matter so you sound intelligent, it's not working.
I know that feeling... I guess we're the same. Except for the age of course.
You are at a tough age. very hard. you just have to bare it and push through. lean on those who care. it gets better. a lot better.