I currently hate my life
I have never wanted to be dead more than I have this past month. Everything has completely gone to pure s***. My moms husband left her and now my mom has been one of the shittiest people towards me. She treats me like I'm not even her duaghter,and it makes me feel like f****** crap. Every time I ask her for something she comes up with the excuse that she has no money,but yet she can buy 100 packs of cigarettes a day?? Prom is coming up and she can't even take me to go buy things that I need, like any normal mother is usually excited for their kid to go to prom but my mom on the other hand yells at me for even wanting to go. She does not even pick me uo from school anymore, which she never really has. And when she does its at 12 am. What a mother. Some people don't have parents at all and I get that but Id rather not have a mom then be treated like I'm nothing by her. Sounds s***** of me to say but its the truth. She cares about herself more than anything. Sometimes I want to kill myself,sometimes I want to run away. I just need to get away somehow.