i hate myself for being suicidal.
i'm not those kind that will kill self, but i always hope i can die 'naturally', like i get a sudden heart attack, someone push me off the rail, etc.
i have everything i want but i can't help getting depressed. i think i may need medication but i am not dare to tell my parents about it. i don'l want them to worry about me.
i hope i can live a day without wanting meself dead.