I feel worthless and damaged
I have always thought of myself as worthless. I've tried finding things to do to keep me happy, but I always lose interest in the things I do or love. Sure I have 4 friends, but I don't know them that well and they don't know how hurt I am. Every time I do tell them, I'm simply dismissed as being a little b****. I don't have depression and I'm not suicidal, but I guess I just feel damaged. I've seen some things, lost others. I had to move from my hometown, I would always be the kid to mock in my new school, and whenever I thought I would have a friend, they would abandon me the next day. Even when I did have friends, they would have to move or change schools. And the one that hurts most, is watching my grandfather slowly leaving us in death and find ing out an hour later that he died (his last word was my name). I just don't know where to go or who to trust. I just wish I didn't come home from school every day asking myself the same question: When will the pain stop?