i love you because you ruined me.
my ex ruined my life. and i have to go through every day feeling worthless cos it all started off with him. he broke my heart, tainted my friendship with my then best friend and generally messed me up. since then, every guy i've been involved with has made me feel like i'm nothing and not worth a thing, even my male best friend made me feel the same. not one of them has felt remorse or appreciation for how they made me feel and i have to struggle on by with what little hope i have left for myself or is being forcefed to me. i don't see the point in trying any more, i'm so tired of fighting to be wanted.
and yes katie, it is me this time. thank you for saving my life.