I so just want to go to any Any town America and meet some random girl/woman,I don't care even if she is married,f*** her good and knock her ass up,and worry about the consequences later.It seems very difficult for me to find a woman wanting to be knocked up these days.
I am jealous of seeing all these pregnant women everywhere,and none of them are by me.I am tired of being careful and responsible. I have had kids with 3 women; raised the first two as a single parent,share custody with the mother of the next two,same thing with the mother of my last baby.Its not like am a lousy dad,I just like to make babies and raise them.
I have always fantasized about knocking up a stranger,a married woman,a woman who's hubby cannot father a baby,or a woman who wants a baby but no husband,a lesbian,or a woman who wants a bi-racial child. it would not matter to me whether the mother wanted me to participate in the child's life or not. I don't even care if she sees me simply as a sperm donor-all I think about is making babies.
I can't have a baby with just about any woman though.I have to feel like she is going to be a caring loving responsible mother. Having a decent job and education(I do too) is equally important.I don't like having babies at tax payers expense.
The other day I was at a small tavern.I saw this one woman, in a group, who was simply beautiful(not a model type),she had great teeth,healthy hair,nice skin texture,medium size-just an average woman. I just imagined that she could make me a beautiful baby girl,almost just like herself.
I approached,introduced myself,took her to the side and had small talk with her. I simply told her this: " you are a gorgeous woman and I think you will be an awesome mother,I would love it if you would have a baby for me". She asked "are you serious"?I said yes. She just cried in shock. I had to console her by holding her,which looked strange to her group.
After she composed herself,she told me she is married. I wanted to tell her not to worry about what her hubby thinks but I held back. She gave me a hug,bought me a beer,took my number and said she will stay in touch.I doubt she will though,but who knows.See,am trying!