I never knew that telling my father I was gay would hurt him as much as it did... its not my fault I love who I love! you cant choose who your fall in love with and what s** they are gonna be! can I admit I wanted to kill myself knowing how much it hurt him of course I can the last thing I wanted to do was make him upset with me or him see myself as a failure! some things you just need to get off your chest and this is one of them! not everyones story will end like this but mine sure as h*** did!