Submissive Deviant

I'm a bit of a sexual deviant. I've ruined my ability to connect sexually with another person because I watch so many different types of **, but it usually has a common theme: Submission. The only times I fantasize about being with a woman, she's dominating me, making me lick her feet, ** on me, sitting on my face and ** into my mouth, ** me with a **, twisting my **, or making me watch in the corner while she screams in pleasure from another man having his way with her.
...Usually a black man, with a fat, juicy member. I get incredibly aroused at the thought of watching a massive ** penetrate my female partner while she laughs at my thin, short **.
Most of the time though, my fantasies are pretty homosexual. Usually the first thought I have when I wake up to my morning ** is spreading my legs for a fat **, letting a bigger man make a girl out of me while my shriveled member bounces up and down, then taking his ** in my mouth right afterwards.

I don't want to become a girl, I just want to get ** like one.