Sad one, not any of the above
I honestly don't want to do this s*** anymore I want OUT I don't want this f****** paranoia I hate being ashamed of how I look and act and feel all the f****** time. I want to be more than what I am but I'm so lost in my own f****** pride and anger I can't even ask for help at this point because my own mind won't let me. Idk I don't want to hook or steal or cheat or lie anymore I just want to know who the f*** I am and be who I was before all this but I don't even think that's possible at this point. As Vinnie Paz wisely said,
Is happiness just a word?