I don'tknow if i love my husband or not. I married him I think because I was divorced and lonely. I thought I loved him but after 14 years of marriage I am still very lonely. He works long days and then when he has time off he does things for himself. I am very attracted to one of his older friends. Maybe because he flatters me and tells me things that your husband should tell you, like how lucky he is to be married to me and how he is missing out on all the family things. My husband is from another country and all he ever says is how he wishes he lived back home. Yes after being here 17 years he still calls it " back home" I just want to be loved and to love and I don't think I know what that feels like. I hurt!