Recently, I've been getting a feeling that everyone seems to be distancing themselves away from me. Sometimes I think I know why, but other times I have no clue. All my friends seem way happier when they're not with me, and sometimes kind of just...ignore me. They're not bad people, they're fantastic, but it seems like I just don't fit in.
Everyone likes to joke about how weird or eccentric they are, but I think I take it to a whole new level. My social ineptness and weird ways probably scare and put off people.
I really just want a genuine friend.
I think I may possibly have depression and anxiety too. But I really don't want to point it out as it isn't really that significant or important. I don't want to be labelled as an attention seeker...
Lately, I've been thinking about making friends on the internet, but my paranoia prevents me from doing so. I'm always on the lookout for potential frauds and it makes it really difficult for me to get close to people.
Sometimes I feel so lonely that I want to cry. My world is so dark, yet everyone else's is so bright.