That I act different to try and please everyone and that I have lost myself
It's normal. That's how you're supposed to be. Imagine if people acted the same way in public as they do in private. All h*** would break loose. You aren't "losing" yourself. You're just adapting to the social situation.
I understand how you feel, me feel the same way. I get sick of being everyone's best friend but my own, which is why I spend a lot of time alone for the last few years, to honour myself more.
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