I love the feeling of being wasted
Basically, since the first time I ever got drunk (years ago) I'm in love with that feeling. I really love to drink until I'm no longer able to function, and push my limits, even tho I know it's pretty dangerous to do so. Sometimes I just get completely wasted home alone, or get as drunk as I can and try to pretend sober for the rest of the day. I'm not alcohol dependent, I don't usually do it more than once or twice a week, but I completely love it.