I'm a straight male who has gay fantasties

I am a conservative, shy and straight male...or at least I thought I was. I have never in my life shown any interest in men nor do I want to have flat out s** with a male, I am always more attracted to females and always was. It is just in recent history that I accidentally clicked on a gay p*** video and actually got curious and interested by it, It turned me on, watching a man dominate another man and that is where I stated having the fantasy of having s** with a male...it gets me off thinking about it. I also admit that I have sent nude pocs and vids to men over the internet.

However, in "real life" or in person I would never want to have s** with a male, in reality and outside of my fantasties I still strongly desire a female. I believe it is the thought that I am never really going to do it with a male that turns me on so much, it is the feeling of knowing that it is something I won't do (almost like forbidden fruit).

So in summary; I'm a straight male with gay fantasties and private 'time' BUT it is only fantasies nothing else because I know that I won't personally get it on with a male, hence I am attracted to women outside of my fantasies. Thanks for reading my confession...please feel free to share your thoughts*

May 30, 2018

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  • Thats the rage of l*** and nothing more. You're not bi for sure. (:

  • The "rage of l***"! What a great great phrase! Thanks for thinking of it that way and then sharing the thought that way!

  • Bisexuality....May be...may b not

  • It’s versatile!

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