Having feelings for my sister
I should clear it up, "Having feelings for my Step-sister."
When we were 20 our parents got together and married, so it's not like we grew up together or anything. I was in college and not living at home and she was living her life. We would spend family meals together every now and then, but that was about it. My mother died a few years later and I lost track of my step-family for over 20 years. Life happens like that.
Now we got back in touch with each other a couple of years ago and I see what's up with her thru Facebook and a call about once a month, until recently, the calls have been 3 or 4 times a week.
I have not said anything to her, nor have I really tried but sometimes she'll drop in a comment on how handsome I am. That in itself means nothing but she does like saying how much she loves having me back in her life. We talk for hours every week and it is nice to have someone to share stories of family with.
But tonight we were texting and she said that she wished that she was with me. I figured it was because she was feeling stressed at home I told her I was writing and it would be boring just the us and Al Green (who I was playing on my iTunes). "Sounds great, I would have peace and quiet." I asked does she think about me as much as i think of her and she said "yes". I had to leave the chat before I said something stupid but I kept on with crap like I miss the beaches and if I came for a visit we should have dinner on one and she agreed.
At this point my mind was racing. So told her I had stuff to do, which wasn't true, I was just noticing how hot I was getting. She then said "I'm going to take a shower." I don't think she meant anything sexual by that, I was taking that visual and running with it. I just need to stop thinking of her like she's a woman and go back to how I saw her 30 years ago.