WHY??!!!!!!!!

I love him. Everything about him seems to call to me..But he can be such a weird complicated person..He's just...too difficult at times...And after all the situations that p*** me off or tire me, you would think that I would be done with him by now...
But I still love him!! ARRGHH!
Why does he enter my dreams so much??
Why does his voice make me so happy??
Why do, when I m*********, I always imagine him when I c**??(I know,TMI, but DAMN! Its true!!!!)
I mean, weve had s** before and I LOVED it everytime...Its just so good....and I think about it..I think about what it would be like for him to actually love me..
But then it all fades away when he does something that seems weird to me and it makes me feel like s***..Like im Small Beans compared to the other girls he's been with and probably loved...
It upsets me to care so much and have him not care for me.
AND to top it off...
Im really upset that one of my friends insist on talkin to him just about everynite. Its like everytime that weve been on threeway together that theyre talking mostly about s** and it makes me mad, like they might be flirting..And im scared that I would actually harm her if she goes too far. Im so serious about it...
WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH ME?!! WHY DO I LOVE THAT DUDE??!!!!!!!!

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  • I don't think you love him but more the ideal of him.

    L&A

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