i must be weird.
i love my boyfriend, weve been together for a long time, but i was so young when we started dating we made a promise to wait until i was older to have s**. he is only two years older then me. weve recently begun to do some sexual things, and although i adore him and we plan to get married, i am still not sure if i can have s**. its like a wierd phobia. well maybe not phobia, im terrified its going to hurt me in someway. he has begun fingering me a little, and one time tried to give me oral, but i wasnt into it. i dont like when he does things for me, but i give him head all the time, and i love it. its so much hotter when he gets off. and it does kinda hurt when he does stuff. yet i find myself fantisizing about it. in my mind i want him really bad. but when it gets down to it, his package is huge and it kinda hurts...and that bothers me. i hope i can get over it before next year, cause that would be the worst wedding night ever, for both of us.