I still love you...

I loved him
Nobody knows that
He's a j******
I still loved him
Now I smile and say I hate him
I don't
I say I never want to see him again
I do
Sometimes I think he's gay
I don't care
I still love him
Sometimes I just want to call him and say so
I don't even talk to him anymore
I still wonder if he's gay
I wonder if we would still have a chance if I'd said something...