Lusty mind

I am a mid 30's ethnic male. Last few years I have increased libido (or at least I think I have) and l****** over fetish ideas and day dream about having affairs with stranger women. I have a huge desire to go online and expose myself. I do it regularly. Since I have a family and a reputable profession these secret desires seems risky but I can't help it. I love to send pics n vids to whoever asks and I walk naked by windows and in my garden hoping my neighbors 'accidentally' see me.

I often find myself watching trans vids and letting young men touch me on buses. I am not sure why I'm doing this! I like women of course but I just want to be seen and touched by strangers.

Help my understand my state of mind please.