What Am I?

I'm biologically female, I'm 31 I should've figured out the whole sexuality gender thing by now, but I'm so confused it hurts
I thought i was straight, I thought all those crushes i had on girls were a phase, I love the male body , but I don't like the idea of being "the woman" in this scenario. I love more like a man than a woman. I think I'm in love with my female, married best friend and there's nothing i can do about it.
I don't know what I am? am i male? female? both? neither?
am i straight? gay? bi? whatever?
I hate my body and I hate this confusion and I'm a total mess

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  • Are you uncomfortable being seen/looking like a woman? If no then you probably are one. In terms of sexuality, its fluid for some people. It's something that can always change which makes it so confusing, if you cant see yourself the 'woman' of the relationship that could just mean you're the top (or well, b**** which is a word I only use when informing people like this as it's not my place to reclaim it) Which, in terms of stereotypes, is the more masculine one. But stereotypes mostly are wrong so if you do end up with a woman? just act how you want if it's not hurtful.

    Hope I was able to help!

  • Get a shrink and a rope. Maybe the shrink will talk you out of using the rope. We hope the shrink helps tighten the noose around your neck.

  • Make sure your outside in public display what you feel inside. have peace with yourself. MTF means you are a female: act and dress like it. remove any act or thought of a male. Act what you display. Surround yourself with the same. I was in your shoes. it worked for me.

  • Well, they are biologically female so if anything they'd be ftm

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