im sleeping with someone who already has a girl friend for my own personal happiness of wanting to feel like i matter in this world to at least one f****** person. im still not happy at all.
he degrades me during s**. prolly to forget he's f****** someone who isnt his girlfriend, the one he loves a s*** load.
he doesnt touch me after he's done with me. kinda looks at me in a "you're just 3 holes to stick my d*** into" way and leaves.
he really hates that he's f****** me, but he wants it if he's doing it, right?
i never initiate the s**, i just comply.
i hate myself is what it comes down to.