my special girlfriend
I am head over heels in love with a married women. I didnt mean for it to happen. We have talked about our feelings and do love each other, definetly soul mates. She will not leave her husband and her kids cause her marriage is a happy one, I totally respect her decision but it hurts bad. it took me until I was 34 to find this true love and I am very very very scared that I will never find anyone that makes me feel the way she does. Will someone ever look at me with such love the way she does, will someone ever understand me the way she does. I hate being lonely but feel that even I did try and met other women they will never compare to her. Also I feel like I want to wait for her to see if her life circumstances ever change to the point she can be with me. Maybe cause I am 34 and unlikely to find anyone its best to hold out some hope that I can be with her maybe not next year, maybe not even in 5 years but maybe sometime. Special girl I know u will read this, I love u angel.