Should I Leave Home Because of Abuse?

At this point, leaving home is completely justifiable because of abuse. It would be hard since I might have Covid (test coming back tomorrow) and am on a lot of medication which has agonizing withdraw.

I'm a 19 year old male. A hand full of times a year my father will put his crotch on my butt, and, or, put his hands on my hips and kiss me on the neck. This has been happening since I was 15, which was around 6 months after a mentally ill person falsely accused my father of abusing my sister and I s*xually. He has even walked up to my sister and started kissing her feet once.

My first kiss/first time was ruined because I hate the kissing sound since my father sucked on my neck in front of my mother when I was 15. The abuse makes me feel violates but doesn't happen often enouph to prove abuse.

My dad has had a bunch of opportunities in the last month to act out against me but hasn't. Even though he might not do anything for months I'm still constantly on edge.

I don't want to ruin my family by coming foward. The damage that I could do could never be repaired. All my mother has ever wanted was a "happy family" because her childhood was rouph. When I was 16 my father was verbally abusive when he was drunk and my mother joined in. She would cover for my dad if I came foward.

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  • Leave with peace-go to another home-it is bothering you so much that you wrote about it.

  • I'm torn because I love my family. Also, there isn't anywhere I could go. I also have a lot of medication to take.

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