I need and will speak up in Drama. I won’t start hyperventilating or getting nervous just sitting with a group of people.
This is ridiculous. I shall feel insanely pathetic tomorrow if I do it again.
Oh, and you WILL talk to him tomorrow. Not just smile fakely under his gaze but if you want to go out with him you have to TALK to him. Why can’t I? I had a chance and every time his nice and gives me a chance, I ruin it. Wow, I am so amazing.
Why was this so much easier a few year ago? I used to be happy, silly, but fun. I had no problem talking. I loved acting.
My dad pulled and kept pulling down my self-confidence but things aren’t up to him but you.
Now, TALKING to people is difficult. I can’t stand it and I am starting to hate myself and people are going to start to hate me.
I can only be my old hyper self with my close friends but I feel as if they don’t know me. It is hard to explain. I should stop.
I just want to be loved, and love myself again. I WILL not be shy.