I needed to post it somewhere...
I just can’t do it anymore.
I lost my step dad.
I lost my sister.
I lost my best friend.
I basically lost my life.
It’s been nearly a year, and I’ve been doing so well with that fake smile of mine, but you can only go along for so long before everything hits you all in one go. I can’t live like this. I have no trust in anyone any more. I can’t open up because I’m too afraid of rejection. This isn't a life that's worth living.
"Don’t feel bad for me. I want you to know, deep in the cell of my heart – I will be glad to go."