Effective, Yet Improper Self-Help
In order to overcome my OCD and an unhealthy level of emotions for the heartache of strangers, I started watching gore videos on the internet. Now, I can wipe some mayonnaise off of a plate before putting it into the dish washer or smell a ** without having a panic attack. It has changed my life for the better.
I don't cry anymore for the people brutalized by police. Last week, I told a girl that has a crush on me,
"______, I think you're great, but I'm not gonna waste your time or pull your heart strings. I don't have a crush on you so move on."
Dispite that, kids and disabled people being hurt still gets under my skin. Sure, I have a little PTSD, but I thickened my skin a lot.
My tips for looking at gore
-Always have a good paid anti-malware software
-No unencrypted files on your computer with passwords or sensitive documents
-Have a no logging VPN
-Use Tor, and click "new identity" for every search, and before you turn it off.
-Never download anything
-Never screenshot anything or save any links
-Don't sign up for anything
-If you see cp, report it to the cyber tips hotline using VPN
-Make sure you're facing a wall in case someone comes in the room
-If you're super paranoid, use Tails on a thumb drive with no percistant on a wifi network in a college dorm or apartment complex.