Can't forgive and forget.
My step dad is a manipulative a******. I hate him!!!! And the worst part is people think it's because he's my step dad and not my biological one, who by the way was never in my life after the divorce. I just hate him with every fibre of my being because he's harrassing me, he has abused me and gave me mental issues, even drove me towards suicide.
I've gone for therapy and for a while it got better. But we just pretend nothing ever happened. Worse part is even though my mom took my side during therapy I'm afraid he's still got her wrapped around his fat finger. And that she's actually forgiven him just because she doesn't want to be alone.
I thought I could forgive and forget too. But it's hard and I can't do it. I can't, because he doesn't deserve forgiveness. He deserves the most miserable, sleep w painful death known to mankind. I have to pretend to be alright when I'm around this f***** and whenever he comes up in a conversation. This scumbag has ruined my life and my mental health so much that I don't think I could ever have a healthy relationship of my own. I want to kill him. I really do. Although, I'm afraid that'll never happen.
I'm thankful I found this site, I must admit I don't know how it works exactly but,l I hope I can connect with people who suffers the same.