I want to be punished

It's kind of comforting to give up control. My boyfriend then husband was dominant and I just slipped into being submissive. Friends knew that I was submissive to him but they had no idea as to how extreme it was. I am not saying I liked it but the underlying desire to please him and to show that I could sacrifice for him was a big part of it. Initially standing facing the wall was super frustrating but over time I leaned to use it as meditation time. Being whipped or caned was in its self something I hated but I also would desire to show how much pain I could endure for him.

You are actually pretty normal. It is just politically incorrect to say so. God bless you and I hope you get the spanking you are craving. Nobody has the background to judge your happiness or needs.

I’ll punish you