Cuckold relationship gone bad
I am a cuckold male. I entered this relationship two years ago willingly and with my eyes open as to what my role would be. The problem is that things have changed and I am regretting my decision. I feel like a fool.
In my first few months my girlfriend trained me to be obedient, accept being humiliated and degraded, perform clean up on her used p****, accept a chastity device and even take a strap on in my ass. I am rarely allowed to have s** with my girlfriend and I obey any directions from her boyfriends.
About a year into this arrangement my girlfriend decided to feminize me. I actually enjoyed it. I lost a little weight to get a girlish figure. Grew out my hair and started a regular salon/home routine for hair removal. My nails and toes are always painted, learned how to put on makeup and always dress as a girl when home. A few of her boyfriends have enjoyed me being a "sissy" cuckold. I am often made to suck c*** and even lick b**** and ass as they f*** my girlfriend.
The problem began a few months ago. Men were coming to the house and paying all their attention to me? They had no desire to have s** with my girlfriend. I was made to service these men on my own. One night a man came by. He handed my girlfriend money right in front of me. I realized I was being pimped out. The man took me into the bedroom and f***** me. Afterwards I confronted my girlfriend and she admitted that "yes" she was selling me as a prostitute. She laughed and said "married men love trannies".
Things went too far last week and I think I need to get out of this situation. Last Friday my girlfriend dressed me in an especially slutty outfit and drove me to a house in a not so nice neighborhood. She ordered me to come with her. A large black man answered the door. He pulled me inside and handed my girlfriend an envelope. As the door was shutting my girlfriend said "I'll pick him up Sunday". There were three other black men waiting inside. I was pretty scared and rightly so. I have to describe the first few hours as a complete rape situation. My arms were held behind my back as the men took turns f****** my mouth and forcing me to deepthroat their large c****. They laughed as I choked and gagged. They would hold their c**** in my throat until I nearly passed out. When they had enough fun with that they tore my outfit to rags ripping it off me. They held me face down as the first man violently raped my ass. He had a very large d*** and it hurt really bad. At that point I decided I would get hurt less if I stopped struggling and just sucked and f***** until they were satisfied. For two days they used me in the most disgusting ways possible.
I want to leave this situation but I have nowhere to go.