I don't feel like a man anymore. I am humiliated and can't seem to pull out of it. I'm only 19 years old and in my first serious relationship. But that my be over now.
Without going into a long story of how I ended up in this situation. Last week I found myself in an unexpected position. I was in a hotel room, bent over the side of the bed with a large, muscular guy f****** me in the ass. As my girlfriend watched!
I am not small in the p**** area. 7 inches, but this guy had probably 9 inches and was really thick. I couldn't believe what happened. I was so embarrassed. As he f***** me my d*** got really hard. I couldn't help it. I didn't even touch myself and I was harder than I had ever been. Then I felt myself start to o*****. I tried not to but I shot c** all over the side of the bed and the floor. I wanted it to be over but the guy just kept f****** me. I felt like forever but he finally shot his load in my ass.
He dressed and left. After my girlfriend asked me if I liked it? When I told her no she said "then why did you get hard and c**"? She kept bugging me about it until I finally just told her "yes I liked it". A few days later she asked me if I might be gay. We haven't had s** since that night and she seems kind of distant. I don't know what to do.